Closer To Heaven

  Recently I have found myself a little aimless. Everything isnt right, every small issue irritates me. I find myself longing for something which I cant understand and this leads to frustrations. I’m not sure why but I feel like i’m walking alone in life. Initially I thought it was the sudden loneliness since I’m staying in a dead town but even when I go out with friends for a late night chat I still feel something is not right. I used to set goals in life. When my checklist has all been ticked, i thought I would be luckiest guy on earth but it isnt. I find myself much worst than before. Its as if I have run out of ideas of what to do in life.

  Every morning i wake up with crazy ideas like going up to Genting to have my breakfast which is approx. 80km away. I only find myself satisfied sitting in my office. When its time to leave I will always drag myself home because I know there’s nothing waiting for me back home. Or have become what my instructor warned me, to not be a control freak? I feel like I’m losing control over my life.a

  I need to get a solution quick. I think I need to find my spot in life. I need to figure out whats there in life for me. Basically, I need a vacation to recover from my bitter sweet 2008. Since I started work, I’ve been an emotionless robot. Everything on ground seems so unreal. I need to wake up to reality, cry and laugh for the forgotten 2008. I need to welcome 2009 with excitement.

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